Day 61: No action

Not feeling well at all. Felt dreadful yesterday, but woke up feeling worse. Had breakfast out and since they didn't have veg decided I would have my fruit and then veg later. Feel so sick I can't face veg now so will try and settle stomach and feeling of malaise with a high veg content lunch. Exercise will have to wait until late afternoon when it is less sunny (quite cool today) and also to see if there is any improvement.

I know what I need to do, but I can't do it.

Day 60: Jelly legs & arms, nausea, near vomit, tears

Day 60 and two thirds of the way through, today was the first day that truly nearly defeated me. Squats were OK, but then after the pistol squats and creep my legs became pure jelly. By the time I got through the shoulder exercises the arms were jelly. Midway through came the nausea and then the desire to throw up. Nearly gave in but decided to listen to that voice which is Patrick sitting on my shoulder and kept on going (with great difficulty). Interesting that someone whom I have never met can have a strong influence on me and can sit there on my shoulder or hover in midair, all by virtue of sending me a daily e-mail. By comparison the ab work was easy.

Remain exhausted, but proud of myself that I have made it to Day 60. Am determined to power through not only the next 30 days, but hope that this is an indication of what I will continue to be doing even after I have finished the 90 days.

It is a time of facing myself, pushing myself and also of discovering myself.