Day 68: My concept of failure is being redefined

I have been beating myself up about feeling like I am failing PCP and wanting to give up because I feel like I am failing. OK, it always takes longer for the penny to drop with me, but what I have had to force myself to understand is that I am not failing, but that I am sometimes getting to the level of muscle failure that we are striving for. It is hard mentally not to feel like you aren't doing a good job when you can't move your leg or arm an inch, but in fact that is what you are supposed to be doing. Nobody ever said that this was going to be easy. From the grunting in my workout today (lots of failure there and LOTS of sweat, I was sliding around on the marble floors) I think I did a good job today. But it is the first day that I actually realised I did a good job. Slow learner.

So I agree wholeheartedly with Patrick's e-mail today saying we are changing our whole lives. I just have to be careful not to have a hissy fit when I can't do the exercises. Also need to get back to working out in the morning as too many other factors get involved later in the day.

Everything done and dusted for the day. Am off to the W Hotel for brunch with the kids... they get cooking lessons, arts, crafts, and magic shows. I get to sit in a nice setting with my cool water and will graze PCP style for the duration of the brunch.

Day 67: Discombobulated

Feeling like I am becoming a bit discombobulated. Out of touch as can't read blogs or watch Patrick's videos. Think I will just start from Day 60 again once I have gotten to Day 90.