Day 66: broadband challenged

We have been super busy going places with the kids and getting up incredibly early the past 2 days so I made a strategic error in deciding to try to do my exercises at night. But then everything has been running late so by the time we get back we are running straight back out the door to dinner. Staying with friends makes it a bit more challenging for me to take that hour out and keep everyone else waiting and at the end of the day I am too exhausted to do anything. So for the past 3 days I have been doing no exercises and also didn’t manage to skip yesterday. Thought about trying to catch up and then decided, draw a line….. to just get back on the bicycle and start afresh, on the correct day, Day 66, not Day 64 or Day 63 or Day 65… was checking to see if there were any exercises that were more palatable, but no, it all looks painful.

Maybe by day 90 I will have improved on my skipping. But I JFD it although the past few times I have wanted to give up. I also have to realize that we are supposed to get to muscle failure and that I have to separate that from feeling like a failure. Mental challenge here we come. Failure left right and centre today.

Am finding internet access very difficult here. Posting blogs and commenting on other people’s blogs is excruciating as the connection often disappears (very frustrating when you just written a comment that goes “poof” into oblivion). Watching Patrick’s videos is a total no-go area, so am 2 weeks behind there. Still not sure if the 4 x 12 V-sits that I have substituted for the kung fu sit-ups are correct as I have also seen reference to 4 x 16…. I suppose I should just go for the most to try to get this 6-pack. Very curious now also to find out what the tunnel vision is. But that will have to wait another week and a half until I get back to Tokyo so that I can download the clips.

Other than that the food is OK. Difficult to manage in the evenings but am trying my best to eat salad with a little bit of protein. Probably eating a bit too much protein. Have noticed the past 2 nights that I am so hungry by the time that I get to dinner that I have been stealing bread sticks from the bread basket. Will need to find a remedy for that. Am eating a lot later than I would chose to do, but again, cannot control that so just have to find a way to control myself. Maybe munch on some beans or corn (that’s what I have available in the fridge) before we head out so that at least there is something in my tummy.

Day 63: Mmmmmm strong? That would be a "no"

"Hope you're feeling healthy, strong, and ready for the last push here."


Unfortunately not feeling very healthy as body aches all over and legs and arms are tired, so as a result not feeling very strong at all. I know that we are continuing to push ourselves, but increasingly feeling like I am going backwards rather than forwards. During the incline pull-ups today I could barely even lift my body off the ground. But, I am going to have to take it a bit easier on myself.


Finished the exercises for the day and am going to listen to all the advice.... today I will be contemplating my navel. Luckily I can now actually see it. Some lazing in the sun, which I have still not yet managed to do since arrival in Bali. Hope the sun comes out. Maybe a foray into the pool, and then if I can I will practice skipping this afternoon to see if a new way of doing (which I have yet to devise) helps at all.


Over and out!

Day 62: Better

Mentally better, thanks totally to my support group who have been cheering me on. Thank you everyone, for being there.

No exercises or skipping today. On purpose. I just want to know why my entire body still hurts!

Day 61 cont: Roadblock

This is a very bumpy journey for me and today I hit a huge roadblock. Been building up with feeling under the weather, but today I just couldn't get through the exercises. Did the skipping with great difficulty and decided to listen to my body and skipped straight through to the ab work. That nearly cost me my sanity.

I am ashamed of myself, I feel like I am weak and incapable. I am disappointed in myself. And also frustrated.

Holiday eating out not working for me. Having trouble gauging volumes and think I may be erring somewhere. So the decision I have made is that the scales will just have to go with me and also if I have to I will take my own food.

Day 61: No action

Not feeling well at all. Felt dreadful yesterday, but woke up feeling worse. Had breakfast out and since they didn't have veg decided I would have my fruit and then veg later. Feel so sick I can't face veg now so will try and settle stomach and feeling of malaise with a high veg content lunch. Exercise will have to wait until late afternoon when it is less sunny (quite cool today) and also to see if there is any improvement.

I know what I need to do, but I can't do it.

Day 60: Jelly legs & arms, nausea, near vomit, tears

Day 60 and two thirds of the way through, today was the first day that truly nearly defeated me. Squats were OK, but then after the pistol squats and creep my legs became pure jelly. By the time I got through the shoulder exercises the arms were jelly. Midway through came the nausea and then the desire to throw up. Nearly gave in but decided to listen to that voice which is Patrick sitting on my shoulder and kept on going (with great difficulty). Interesting that someone whom I have never met can have a strong influence on me and can sit there on my shoulder or hover in midair, all by virtue of sending me a daily e-mail. By comparison the ab work was easy.

Remain exhausted, but proud of myself that I have made it to Day 60. Am determined to power through not only the next 30 days, but hope that this is an indication of what I will continue to be doing even after I have finished the 90 days.

It is a time of facing myself, pushing myself and also of discovering myself.

Day 59: Exhausted

Everywhere in my body hurts. I am exhausted. Didn't think the exercises had stepped up that much, but am dragging myself through the day.

Skipping today sucked. Leaden lags. Exhaustion cut number of jumps by 20%. Man oh man oh man is it frustrating to not even be able to do 10 jumps consecutively. And that was good. I stumbled on average every 2 jumps. But I did feel proud of myself that whilst it was all a pile of doodoo I kept on going. Not jumping also makes you sweat.

I would like to think that it was nothing to do with my giving in to temptation and having a millefeuile yesterday. Believe it or not I do not have a sweet tooth, but above chocolate mousse I love millefeuile and you can't get them in Japan the way I love... only Holland (and now Bali!). So for the first time in 3 years of seeing one, I lost all discretion.

This afternoon is another afternoon of exercises. Tomorrow is another day of skipping. Since it is Saturday I think I will dispense with first thing in the morning tomorrow to see if a) that is any better, b) I think I need a break from getting up before everyone else.