I am broken

I am not sure which was worse.. the plank or the creeps. Either way they made me break down and cry. I am a broken woman. It is the first time that anything PCP has made me cry.

Day 26: Wow, that was unexpected!!!

I decided to buy a whole bottle of my favourite red wine. If I was going to drink wine, then why not my favourite. I wanted to savour it. Will throw the rest away. Still cheaper than wine in a nice restaurant.

Lovely breeze on the patio, contemplating why one olive tree is thriving and the other not, chilling after a hard workout and a well needed shower. It was just delightful to have my first glass of wine. Really nice.

Towards the end of the second glass it didn't taste quite as nice. But still nice to sit on the bench in the garden contemplating how good life was.

Went in for dinner..... and then started feeling lazy.

I was asleep on the sofa before 9pm. Mmmmmmm not good. Was planning movie night with hubbie and had to go to bed at 9.05pm, at the same time as the children!!!!!!

Slept for 11 hours and couldn't move when I woke up. My whole body was in agony. Am wondering now whether Patrick timed indulgence with new execrcises so we would think that the effect was worse! My waist through to my lower back and pelvis is in agony. Can only think that hopping and V sit are the culprits, not my 2 glasses of red wine. They are just responsible for getting me to bed at 9pm on a Saturday night.

And now my bras are too big.

Day 25: Can't eyeball grammes!

We had our year end party with the parents and teachers last night for the children's school. A great night, really fun. Had my water in my wine glass as is the norm for me now. Makes me feel better than having water in a water glass. And everyone around me was so trollied they didn't realise it was water that I was drinking!

But, I am not good at eyeballing grammes. Interesting reading Patrick's e-mail today...... I have been fanatic about grammes and weighing and taking my scales out with me. But I didn't have them last night. The food selection was fantastic actually. Amongst lots of other things they had a huge tray of roasted veggies and also some chicken. So that is what I focused on. But it was so good and I thought I hadn't had enough veggies the first round as it was one of those small plates that I went back for a second round of veggies and a bit more chicken. But, I think I may have taken too much chicken. Also not sure if it was too much veg. However, I then figured I needed to relax and let up on myself a little bit as opposed to being spastic about it. It wasn't as if I was eating non PCP complaint food. Also I started to eat at about 7.15pm and didn't leave the venue until 1am (husband's glass miraculously kept filling itself for about 3 hours as I was trying to go home), so had quite a bit of time to burn it off..... no fruit though which is weird in Japan as they always serve fruit. Declined the yummy looking chocolate mousse.

Will be working out later this evening as it is too hot at the moment.

Was very excited to read Patrick's e-mail. Am "planning" my indulgence. With great pleasure I am going to buy one of those little bottles of red wine. I will go to a proper wine shop, not my local Japanese supermarket. And I will sit on my patio. Have already told my husband that I am indulging today and that it is not a derailing. Had many fabulous comments last night about the changes already, and am very psyched about continuing to get better and better and better.

I had a giggling fit whilst reading this week's question thread and Peter's comments. The whole family wanted to know why I was laughing, but it wasn't something that could be repeated to a 9 and 10 year old (even though the 10 year old just had her sex education source this week).

Day 24: Today's gonna be a good day

I can feel it. It is going to be a good day. I went out to dinner last night and sat there looking and smelling at all the yummy food being placed on the table. And all I did was look at it and drank my water. I had already had my dinner so knew that I wasn't hungry. Too many comments though such as "surely it can't hurt to only eat a little bit" or "go on, have some". But I didn't, because I didn't want to. And when I looked at all the food I realised that 1) most of it was fried and 2) other than the odd bit of watercress or decorative piece of asparagus, there were no veggies. Mainly pure protein and the odd potatoe wedge or other carb for the spring rolls, noodles etc. So once I got over the smell (which was very good), I actually was quite put off.

I was drinking water in a wine glass so that I didn't have to drink just the thimble-full that I had been given as a water glass. By mistake one of the waiters poured Cloudy Bay Sauvignon Blanc into my water. Unaware of this I took a sip, and I am very shocked to have to write here that it was disgusting. How can Cloudy Bay SB be disgusting??!!!! One of my favourite wines, but that may have been in a past life.......

Day 23: Hard day

Today's workout was hard. The leg lifts nearly killed me--and that was at the end. Whilst I was skipping I was laughing at myself for thinking that 300 skips was a lot! Ha!! Push ups I managed all on my toes, but barely moved. Just a slight dip but thought that that was better than nothing, that I had to start somewhere and maybe (big maybe) I could get better at it. The tricep dips also excruciating. Didn't realise I had become so adept at the other version with bent legs!

I did do lots of other things today, but my thoughts seem to be focused on the exercise.

Had dinner already and am going out for a few hours for "dinner", which will involve me drinking water and maybe having some evening fruit. Oh the joys, but I am shocked to say am not missing the wine!

Day 22: Very tired

Despite 7 and a half hours of great sleep, a nap and taking it easier than usual this morning I have been very, very tired all day. Left the exercises to late this evening which was good as I managed to do them (bit  of stumbling whilst skipping) relatively smoothly, but with sufficient (lots) of pain.

Am now almost looking forward to my trip to Scotland and doing exercises in the cold!

Major achievement today: fixed my husband's bedside light which required rewiring and which I had been trying to do for the last 2 weeks. Spurred on by my PCP frame of mind I think.

Day 21: Had a fab dinner at my favourite restaurant

Struggling still with the humidity. But otherwise today's skipping all OK.

Had a great dinner at my most favourite place in Tokyo, Andy's Place (Shinhinomoto). I took my scales and I weighed out all my food. Was with good friends, so felt comfortable doing that.

I also met Lori (PCP Day 69) there, who told me that Andy can do PCP compliant food as he knows a lot of people who have completed PCP already. I had just picked what I wanted from the menu and adjusted--because I didn't know this. But that it the best news I had in the last 3 weeks.

Anyway, now I also have additional confirmation that I am doing the right thing by hearing how all these guys have changed their bodies dramatically.